Seeing things...

We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are.

~Anais Nin

I see a creative woman, hair blowing in wind, embracing life, taking chances and being free...

now, your turn...what do you see?

love works...

sometimes...i don't know about you...but i think often of love, present, past, love that might be...in my heart, beyond my soul, love lost, love captured and then vanished...
have you ever loved someone for too long? yep...check. loved not long enough? been there... love that let you down so? check again...love that you could not keep up with? you bet...love that overpowered, love that undermined, love that (i just remembered in a dream) was too much for me to handle (should i have let him slip away? no idea)...love of a child..don't get me started...love that makes you get goosebumps and then love that makes you want to throw up the contents of your stomach...ooooh i have been, felt and loved everyone of them...so it was time for me to make some love...real love...

so here you go...

made from a loving heart, with vintage kimono & up cycled silk, glass beads and hand forged, formed and uniquely designed with my own wee hands...

how you over there? yep, you lovely one?

brilliant...

'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be?

And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.'

~Marianne Williamson 

Here's to you...you brilliant, gorgeous talented & downright fabulous one...

Bon Weekend

hmmm....

To sew or paint? I asked myself this morning...hmmm...

then it came to me

Sew AND Paint silly girl...

here's wishing you a day filled with all you enjoy.

glimpse in the moonlight (nightlight)...

today was filled with what most days are filled with...

wake up

cuddle

utter words of adoration to wee ones who are still sleeping

stuff lunches

set breakfasts on counter

vitamins..check

books

backpack

homework packed

all in place 

before 7:15 a.m.

out the door

then the creative dabblings of a mum trying to focus throughout the day...

pick up from school

race to cub scout outing

lovely gem and minerals museum

open house at school

such lovely feats of intelligence viewed and shared

dinner out at a restaurant

glass of wine

talk amongst us
just our family of 4

laughs

joking on each other

tree climbing outside the restaurant

rolling like barrels down a hill 

with sprinklers full on

more laughing

then home

reading

and in a single moment of quiet blissful, routine...

I SAW IT...

the most amazing and heart warming moment 

of the day

both of their silohettes outlined by the moonlight nightlight in their bathroom...

as they brushed their teeth

i laid on his bed looking on...

astonished at my luck

taken back by the calm 

the warm glow

the wonder that surrounds me

and i realized in one second

how amazing my life is

thanks to them...

and so it all comes full circle

and i am such a wonderfully happy lucky girl...

good night you lovely folk...

10 tidbits...

10 Things 

(that you didn't know about me)

1. I actually do not really like to talk on the phone at all.

2. I lived in Hawaii for over 10 years and made the most amazing friends a girl could ever ask for, I miss them very much.

3. I struggle with guilt around being a good mom and making the right choices.

4. I don't like chocolate.

5. Sometimes I get lost on blog hops and get down when I see the perfectness that seems to be some peoples lives...(working on not doing that, no one's life is perfect).

6. I have a clog collection.

7.  I have a scarf collection.

8. I love to cook but not to bake.

9. I don't do so good in large crowds or with loud noises.

10.  I love to read but feel like I don't have enough time to open my books.

Ok...now your turn.

simplify...

well, call it springtime, call it some overwhelmness (not sure if that is a word), term it hustle bustle, kids, school, biz, heck let's just call it life...it happens and sometimes I find that it is not always easy for me to come  here, even though i would like to be one of those prolific writers and go on and on about the realizations and clarity moments in my life...basically sometimes life sucks...and up until about a week ago that is pretty much the way the cookie was crumbling...and let me share a wee little secret... this cookie crumbles pretty well...

as a result...'simplify, simplify' has been, and is my motto of late...
purge, clean out, clear the shelves and make things...well... simple, my friends...
does it not make you think much clearer when your space is cleared? duh
i seem to create messes everywhere i go (throughout my home that is), i have various creative endeavors in progress and then start something new (metal metal metal)...
then i have a mess going with that and cannot seem to focus or see the forest for the trees...

so i retreat...
then get mad at myself for doing so...

then slump it out and wonder why i am not doing what i truly want to do...

and so it goes...

see,
 i told you...

crumbly mess...

why i am writing this post? 

no idea...

except 

i 

am human

imperfect

real

scarred 

learning

solid

but

questioning

happy

calm

often

bewildered

but

here...

how are you?