times like these...

there are times when i would like to come here to my little space and unload all that is in my head and heart and i think to myself that i am going to really post something that gets some attention, 

maybe a real provocative thought or issue and get some feedback and comments...

and then i get here and i often don't really know what to say or how to say it (yep, that is a rarity for this gal), but it is true...

life is not always flowers and fun stuffs, it's not always that great at all, tensions can run high, finances run low, energy runs even lower at times, and just when you are living along your life, you realize that past issues, well, they still reside somewhere inside that you cannot quite pinpoint, nor resolve...

not to blame them but just to acknowledge they are there and have a little part in things & maybe just let them go a bit or a lot, whatever suits your fancy...

not long ago, a very very dear and most loved girlfriend told me that she  realized that the progression of her life clearly had been laid out by the choices she made, this is a simple concept and one that we all most likely have felt, but have we ever really pondered on it (don't do this too long for obvious reasons)

 and she felt that at this point in life, she was afraid to make too many decisions involving change, for fear it would result in the same old thing...hmmm...so perhaps it is simply that in fact we become a bit paralyzed at times and do not want to make changes or move forward just simply because past choices have not always led to the greatest results..

i get this, i am even guilty of this...however, it seems quite clear that we have to keep making choices about things that scare us, or about what makes us uncertain and shaky...for these are the things that make the difference...good or bad...we have to deal with the outcome of our choices and be ok either way the results end up.

Perhaps this was far from profound or provocative, perhaps it did not get much attention, but at least there was a little unloading of head and heart...feel free to do the same and leave me a comment!

happy thursday to all...

kelly